Every single person who is or has gone through this adoption roller coaster will identify with this post.
Yesterday, I had the opportunity to tell someone about our boys and our adoption. I love being able to talk both about the boys as well as Haiti. During this particular conversation though, I became very emotional, shed some tears actually and I don’t usually do that. Don’t get me wrong I shed plenty of tears in private however I am usually able to hold it together. In response this wonderful, Godly woman, whom I respect and enjoy began to dispense some Godly wisdom that I would normally find comforting. Wisdom that I believe, that God is loving on them all the time, that this will all happen in His time, that the boys really don’t know what they are missing. I believe these things… on my rational days. This day was not one of those. This day was the kind of day where I could scream. The kind of day where I just want my freakin’ boys home period. No wisdom needed just send them home!!!!! I understand, on my rational days, that the boys are safe, that they don’t know the things in life they are missing that they are in an environment that is normal for them. On the other days I really don’t care about all that, I want my boys here so we can sit together in bed and read stories, so they came meet their big brother and big sister, so that when they get hurt we can kiss there owies away, so that they can eat 3 healthy meals a day, they can learn about God, they can ride a bike, go to the zoo, eat cookies and milk, sing silly songs in the bathtub I could go on and on. JUST BRING THEM THE HECK HOME!!!!!!
Fortunately these days only come every once in a while. I am guessing though, as time goes on, the frequency will increase. So I guess those of you who know me well, be warned. When you ask me about the boys I cannot promise you which response you will get. If my eyes get glassy and my back stiffens you have 2 choices… RUN LIKE H*#@ (and I will not hold it against you if you do!) or say a prayer with me.
With all that said, I DO trust my God and I know that He is in all of this. Actually, I don’t know how anyone could do this WITHOUT a relationship with Christ. My crazy days would WAY outnumber my rational days if that were the case. In the end God is Good, I can never say that too much!
Continuing to Pray them home.
Until the next post, enjoy the latest pics of the boys!
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